Stuck in a perpetual state of "I don't want to."
I realized while watching, that I didn’t have my own strategies. More often than not, I would find myself in a perpetual state of “I don’t want to.” For example, in the mornings, I don’t want to get out of bed. After a long 15 minute conversation in my head on why I should, I do. Then it moves on to I don’t want to hop in the shower, finally, I am in the shower. Once in the shower, it becomes an inner battle to even get out of the shower. It is warm, safe and soothing – why would I want to leave?
These little bouts of convincing and forcing myself to move forward goes on all day until the one thing I do want to do is go to bed – at this point, there is no need to convince myself to hit the sack, I just climb in. On these days, I would be in bed 3 or more hours earlier than anyone else in the house. It would have been a long and exhausting day just trying to get through the day to day activities of life.
In Jessica’s talk, she talks about signs of depression are different for everyone and how you need to know yourself and be able to see the symptoms you can spring into action. The action of being able to do identify what you need when you are dealing with a bout of depression and use it.
Take the next 15 minutes to watch Jessica’s talk then step back and think about your signs and what helps you be proactive in moving forward and being able to get stuff done when an unexpected round of depression decides it is time to visit.
